Must not cry, must not cry, must not freaking cry!!

People are afraid of all kinds of things: spiders, the dark, or being enclosed in small spaces. Tell us about your greatest fear — rational or irrational.

Right now, I am totally worried about crying tomorrow. That is my current Fear.

I normally love crying, I actually pride myself on my ability to empathise with people and feel secretly pleased that I’m so emotional – (I work, yay!)

Tomorrow is different though.

Tomorrow is my last day at work in my current job, and I’ll have to say by to everyone. I’ve been here for almost 8 years, so I will feel sad and emotional, even though I’m making the move that I’ve wanted for a while. Venturing onto pastures new and being excited about the future doesn’t automatically overwrite the fact that I’m leaving somewhere that I have been used to for some time.

The thing about crying tomorrow is… I work with a bunch of guys! The only thing that can be worse then me crying is the awkwardness that will follow as no one will know how to react, and we’ll all just be feeling a bit weirded out and uncomfortable for a while.

I have thought about it and come up with two possible options:

  1. Watch sad stuff tonight, with a view to releasing lots of emotion in advance so that I’m all cried out by the time tomorrow evening comes.
  2. Before I actually say bye to everyone  watch ten minutes worth of cute/funny kitten videos, hoping that the overdose on cuteness will give me enough positive vibes to last through the good-byes.

Hmmm, I think I’m onto plums. I could try both of my theories above, but the reality of it is, I’ll still cry as I’m a big soft sap!

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My nephew. Love!!

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A new year, a new perspective

An impending new year gives rise to reflection and goal setting. What will your goals for 2014 be? It’s never to early to start thinking about self improvement!

Isn’t it funny how we wait until New Year to make resolutions, promising ourselves that we will live a more productive, rewarding, self less life. I guess it is the same as when you want to stop smoking, you are advised to set a date in the future that you can prepare for, and count down to.

How many times has this approach been taken, and how successful has it been? Setting a future date may help, but when you decide to do something with conviction, you don’t need to wait until a more suitable time. The most suitable time is NOW. In three months time you will wish you had started (whatever it is you wanted to start) – now, as you’ll be three months into it and closer to achieving your goal.

Still, I like to muse over the New Year and take some time to reflect on what I have achieved (or not) over the past year. A year seems as good a period as any to review.

2013 has been a good year for me. I felt as though my working life was a bit stagnant for a while, and I spent a lot of time moping about it. (I start my new job on Monday, yay!) Despite this feeling of searching for something else, a lot of positive things have happened, for which I am thankful.

I’m going to take a minute to count my blessings and the happy things of 2013.

  • I have finally started exercising regularly
  • I moved house recently with my beau, and still love it
  • I’ve had the means to practice my hobbies, like crocheting
  • I’m healthy, as are my friends
  • I’ve spent a lot of quality time with my family
  • I’ve socialised regularly, and also spent more time with people I don’t see that often
  • I have had get togethers that include a wider group of friends and made new one (always good!)
  • I enjoyed a holiday with my extended family in Sardinia
  • My friends graduated and my brother started up his own business

Next year I hope I can continue to grow as a person.

I want to be mindful of who I am, spending more time doing things that are good for my soul, and my body. I want to make time to catch up with the people that I care about, as sometimes this year I have felt ‘too busy’ (other times I’ve just been lazy), but every time I have caught up with people outside of my immediate circle I leave with a massive smile in my heart, and a deep rooted feeling of how big an impact that small action has on our lives – mine and theirs.

I want to keep on keeping on, striving for a better life while enjoying the one I have.

Does that make sense!?

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Crazy cat lady you say?

Think about something that drives you crazy. Now, think about something that makes you happy. Does it change your perspective on the former?

Short post from me today as I’m pushed for time, but the answer to the question above is YES!

A kind of relevant example comes from a few weeks ago when I was having a shit morning at work. It was super shit – I ended up crying at my boss, which is one the most inappropriate and unconstructive things you can ever do. I couldn’t shift my bleak outlook, nor could I get over the reason I was crying in the first place – I was still annoyed, frustrated, disengaged and angry.

I decided to watch a couple of cat videos on youtube, including this one:

It made me smile from the inside out. After skiving for about 15 minutes I had managed to reset myself back to ‘normal’. I had an objective look at my original grievance, changed my perspective, and realised that it wasn’t so bad. I then took myself upstairs to my boss’s office and apologised for crying, while calmly explaining why I had arrived at that state in the first place.

All because the cute little critters softened me I was able to change my perspective on a baf situation and be more reasonable. They sorted me out!

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