Must not cry, must not cry, must not freaking cry!!

People are afraid of all kinds of things: spiders, the dark, or being enclosed in small spaces. Tell us about your greatest fear — rational or irrational.

Right now, I am totally worried about crying tomorrow. That is my current Fear.

I normally love crying, I actually pride myself on my ability to empathise with people and feel secretly pleased that I’m so emotional – (I work, yay!)

Tomorrow is different though.

Tomorrow is my last day at work in my current job, and I’ll have to say by to everyone. I’ve been here for almost 8 years, so I will feel sad and emotional, even though I’m making the move that I’ve wanted for a while. Venturing onto pastures new and being excited about the future doesn’t automatically overwrite the fact that I’m leaving somewhere that I have been used to for some time.

The thing about crying tomorrow is… I work with a bunch of guys! The only thing that can be worse then me crying is the awkwardness that will follow as no one will know how to react, and we’ll all just be feeling a bit weirded out and uncomfortable for a while.

I have thought about it and come up with two possible options:

1. Watch sad stuff tonight, with a view to releasing lots of emotion in advance so that I’m all cried out by the time tomorrow evening comes.
2. Before I actually say bye to everyone  watch ten minutes worth of cute/funny kitten videos, hoping that the overdose on cuteness will give me enough positive vibes to last through the good-byes.

Hmmm, I think I’m onto plums. I could try both of my theories above, but the reality of it is, I’ll still cry as I’m a big soft sap!